Well, my younger sis is the blogging inspiration. She has been writing up a storm and I have my pothetic page which has barely had eyes laid on over here. I figured out how to follow her through my blogger site tonight and thought.... I should just write something! So, here goes!Life has been such an adventure since I last wrote. I am still living with my mom and enjoying being a mom of a now 3 year old. She has been a real joy and every day is fun and at the same challenging in different new ways.
I recently went kayaking with my sister. We had not gone out on the river for over 3 1/2 years. As I was paddeling down the river I thought about how my life is so different than the last time I was on the river. I also thought back to the experience of paddeling out down stream and then back up stream. It was the time of year when the water was really low and we ended up getting out of our kayak and walking through the rocky areas, dragging our boats behind us. It was fun being together, but it was kind of annoying and challenging compared to our recent trip. This past Saturday when we went, the river was really high and was actually rising while we were out on it. The tide was super fast. We chose to take the bus out 6 miles and then paddel down stream to the base. It took us less than 2 hours to get back which the owners said they had not seen in years. After we got back they prohibited anyone else from going out on the river because of how quickly it was rising due to the rain we had the days before.
Three years ago my life was just like the river was... dry and difficult. I was struggling, striving and trying to paddle up stream. I was really stuck. We had decided to start up an Adventure Club. It was only a few months later that I got pregnant. Life was falling apart, or so I thought. I was basically lost. I was desperate for God to bring his refreshing rivers into my family and my life so that he could just fix everything, but I was not surrendering over my will or my choices to Him. I wanted the benefits of Him but did not really even know Him.
Basically, I now have a whole new perspective on what it means to be a child of God. I am completely changed from 3 years ago. My boat is now floating down stream. Alot of the same circumstances, obstacles and scenery are here, but internally I am transformed. The releasing moment was when I finally decided to surrender it all to Him. I struggle with this still, but I'm learning that the quicker I let go, the quicker I find peace and am able to see Gods Spirit work in me and through me. This is something so special to me!
